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losing my freedom. I discovered my freedom,
so maybe the universe needed to remove all
the things I gave power too so that I can remember where the power belong inside of myself.
Welcome everybody to the minds and mentor podcast. I'm excited to bring you my yesterday super
just about which is crazy, because we ve been friends for though I have I've, never research, you
I gotta research and because I'm a bit of union this week,
and we were just an hour before the cameras went on. We're like this guy has literally been in. Every single industry have done everything your life in the fact that you're forty one forty two I'll be forty two in July
forty two in july and you
the story that you have already remarkable. Some
Guerin Jones everybody. I m excited to bring you guerin jones and I wanted to live in, and I want to talk about. Your childhood first told me some crazy
stories. But I've been hanging out at your house and you ve got me. You could write a book.
There should be a movie only for all of the different crazy source you ve had a year
it's going to be a garen jones movie, one day, yeah and in so tell us a little bit about yourself. So people who don't know who you are so can get a little bit idea of who you are so
I was born and raised.
Missouri city, texas and family.
didn't come from money. Parents would up. When I was four years old, my father
it was murdered. When I was twelve, that's one I just decided. I don't care about
anything and that's when I got into breakin breaking in a car
breaking in the houses in just doing what
We're with no regard to responsibility is, after my dad died. It was like a part of me diamond just didn't care and that just
carried on and to high school, but somehow I had a neck to run, track and be really fast in that was the
that was the silver lining ledges kept me going. I probably wouldn't
have made it out of high school school, they had been for tracking field.
and then you know, I always had dreams to be a modern people, people
Call me crazy when I was a little kid, but
I may one day be a model of undue tommy, her vigour and one day,
it'll be on tv one damned I just always saw that becoming
from Missouri city, that's not normal, like the people,
there's a lot of really talented people from worm from their gifts
the shine now because of like entertainment, like rats,
and things like that, but anything outside of that really didn't make it outside of that city, and so I was looked at as the crazy
the kid who man you're like an alien bro. You just talk about stuff that makes sense to nobody, but I always
Oh that I was supposed to do the things
I am now doing
and you know I I was in it.
A juvenile several times. One time I had spent six and a half months and after
I got out a juvenile. I was supposed to go to t Y c, which is a prison for teenagers and then, after I got out of the t Y c, I was also being tried as an adult at the age of fifteen, because I got busted for sixty
do felonies breaking too fell yeah, but here's what I want people to see.
on the surface was sixty two felonies
but below was a little kid who is
driven to succeed at something
energy cannot be created or destroying only transfer. I just watch,
well aware of where to put this energy measure so put it into chasing. Women are put it into cheating,
tests. I put it into
brackened field, which I succeeded at all of them, and
you know it's. It's like
learning a language. You don't just
learning English once you ve already been domesticated with it. So my upbringing, bringing was that of
just tryin it beef training,
get around without work.
hard and just just having no regard for
Those who came before me disrespecting people cheating on women in as I started, getting older, that never stopped so a big part of my childhood was it at a direction lists? Lou
Kid who was driven and didn't know where to point the energy
because I've heard you tie
don't you just started saying it's: it's like a language like poverty is kind of like a language you're you raise in this situation. You just have always
I thought about it. I've always thought to myself. I was lucky where I was
to see we don't have any money. You know my mom pie for food stance, but you can't get food stamps when you got a car for some reason
We never were able to get it and do it
that I did have, though, and it was being able to see my uncle, who is very successful, yeah right.
Able to see it as able
my father in him, passageway fifteen, when I was fifteen from him being an alcoholic and all of the stuff that he went through because he
in overcoming trauma, as if of his father, killing himself when he was twelve and walking the room and seeing it. But then, on the other side I saw my uncle dan and he was
successful guy had to employees all of this.
and I saw that there were other options.
You're going to say is where you were growing up. There was no other options goes like this is. If you were to grow up in spain, it speak spanish.
I would draw up where you grew up, yeah that poverty
she saw it was basically a language that you just spoken that went through your head at all points in tire, and that also speaks to the power of community to do, but the things that I did have access to is. I saw, and even though I felt like my brother, never liked me because he pretty much disowned me when I was a kid. I saw him fall in love with skateboarding and he studied
film any practice, and I didn't know what. Then you can't change which are not aware of boom, if its ingrained in there somewhere in you so conscious, mind so ice.
I'll bet,
my uncle
gay, but I didn't know what that was when I was four and five years own. So
beware bright colors and he was very expressive in he would just dance all the time.
the anybody knows anything about me, but do loud. I wear bright colored, very
honestly, like a lid on upon poligized
being aware that came from the oracle dwayne
but I had. I had no idea. I was just exposed to the people that I was exposed around, and so I am forever grateful for my uncle dwayne, because what he taught me is what people struggle with today's being open minded
and my best friend was muslim. My other best friend was jewish. My mom went to a method, is church and the people must go into a baptist church
and I fell in love with the with the non denominational sir
I was so exposed to my favorite uncle.
who is gay and then
My best friend, who is muslim so from
Little kid I always Harold was arthur mine to just be able to receive people for who they are and be off,
ethically me pleasure,
I didn't know that I get paid for that
down the line, because a lot of people are stuck in met domestic
no. This is how it is in my dad was like this will my dad wasn't around my mom was always at work and my brother, pretty.
disarmed me. So I pretty much ray
myself along with the streets, but I definitely speak into that language. You
think about how it's in grain you
go gaga goo than you learn a b sees than you keep on
being on the basics than that turns into words sentences paragraphs essays book
libraries, so imagine a household of insecurity, lack of worthiness, authenticity
all these different things. This is what little kids
without even knowing this is how their domestication shapes their future, and I say all the time
Adults or deteriorated children until you see that you can create a different outcome for your life. So what does that take
so you know you're in juvenile. What happens after juvenile his you. You talk about modeling, you talk about yet, but there's a whole lot of stuff to tat lie behind their so so
you you went from their lives in a car for for two years, yet you you ve, been imprisoned.
Represent yet so what it was,
stories behind all these cause. You ve done everything that you could pass. We do it in. So I
kept on with the language of looking for cheap ways to get around things and never you know just but more than anything I always was seeking a place of belonging our way.
I never felt like I belonged anywhere, so I tend to hang out with the people that were showing me love when I was a little kid, the people that would show me love or the people that got in trouble all the time where you fast forward five ten
Here's an that still the same characterisation of my life by nature,
when I'm around that environment. It's like a safe environment refer me, so we
I was in juvenile and our
because I didn't start puberty, south eighteen years old,
so I was a little kid for a long time when I was in juvenile. Everyone said in his eye
what are you doing in here? You look to nice, but I was so fearless like. I would do the stuff that no one would do without hesitation for the sake of somebody's gonna. Recognize me
and say all great job, because I never heard you matter your special, your important when, when I was a little kid so
and juvenile. I remember my probation offer the office who said to me. He said he goes, you know, get in. There comes a time in your life, were you to fork in the road and you can either turn left for. You can turn right and he looked me in the eye and he said, or you can hit the brick wall is again. You ve hit the brick wall. He said I'll, see you
prison and I never forgot- and I still kept up with the crime and stuff like that- never forgot what he said.
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as for some years, I'm still trying to figure out my life, and I knew
that I wasn't supposed to be in misery city. I knew I was meant
go somewhere else. I knew that, since I was a little kid, so I left I winter, I was
in LOS angeles, trying to figure life out, ended up
Signing a record deal with a guy in ohio that I met
in los angeles, which
made no sense to leave that music capital and then go to ohio at that time. Nothing was popping out of them and I go
there and he promises promises us this big,
contract and you can stay on the other side of my house and, unlike all my god, we get to go to use. It is
group in the name of our single group was call soldier
we get to go on the other side of the house. May we get to the house and it was like health day
everything that he said was a lie. His father was, it was like a pastor bodies like.
Following this criminal types, the unarmed happening, you know
a signed, the contract, her. It was a
stick machine gun on the table.
Any literally say you know wise plastic say why
because if I use it I can melt it. No one will ever find out. So I ended up signing my life away. Legit signing my life away, and in this moment I was like whoa, what's happening, I'm eighteen years old
what is this and I still wasn't aware, still kept
Jason women still kept doing like low petty things. Could I just
No, I had lacked major direction
and even how I got out of this situation. We were in miami, for this event, called the impact he wanted us to
his gun home cause. He couldn't take it out on the plane flight, so he took we're. We had a brief case and a gun
we're driving and stop the car. I'm not going back to ohio. They like he's gonna, kill us those like,
we got his gun, I'm not going back to ohio. Now
I didn't know at the time
I was leading. I was influencing
for in a certain way as an I'm not going back to ohio. Let me out of the car no fee,
no money, no car. What do I do?
I start walking with determination to god.
Whose, where they stop the car, come back,
we start to go back to allay. So I think my confidence
and where I was going, was much stronger than their lack of
confidence in going back to an area where they were fearing for their life. We open up.
The d, the brief case in all of our contracts, were in their fuck that
so we we burn of the contracts, throw away the gun com,
to allay dasso. My allay starts, like I gotta figure, something out
and saw enrolled in santa Monica community college met to remain there,
and I was like y'all need a place to stay cause. I was staying with my cousin marcus at the time and I was like, but it was just he was. He was way too strict
I need a place to stay stay with these two, like japanese girls from ok. Now they could barely speak english
And we were all sleep in the same bed, nothing sexual, but it was like Hell. This is why, while like, how my in this situation,
someone said I should model get it.
I'm six one now, but at the time of five foot, nine and there
joking around don't
look around me cause. I'm gonna actually prove me wrong, sir,
I literally went to air
recent GL agency.
There was in los angeles, starting with the easiest ones, for
ford and will Amelia the hardest was last. I got rejected every single
day for four days and on the left,
day, I'll, let you know what it's not worth it in a little voice came up inside of me and says you come. This
Aren't you going so I go in that room and I'm watching
at least seventy five guys, who I feel look way better than me. I'm like they ve already got
two black guys on the wall, and at that time they only took two or three black people.
any fashion wall
skin guy lights. Getting guy the one lies can go to the bright eyes in the big here.
On every single high.
fashion model wall they already had that. So
my insecurity. I have no ebbs. I have no book. I have no car, I dont look like a model. I don't look like
anybody in here. So that's what had me walk away, so I walk up and
was my turn. After everybody got maybe ten seconds of looking time with the agent everybody got rich,
unlike you know, I forget damages be me-
inside of their breath
go and in there looking at me,
longer than ten seconds alike. There, like her
and he goes way.
polaroid Malo. Burgess,
comes back with two other agents and, unlike any
we love to represent you, you don't look like anybody.
So my insecurity was
uniqueness, not my actual insecurity, but what I felt was my insecurity, because I don't
Like me, anybody was the thing that they were looking for. They sent me on destinies child jump and jump.
have video
in addition to be the lead role beyond days boyfriend. They sent me on a buckle campaign and sketches campaign. I didn't have a car
I could only make two of them. I made the buckle, sketches and
unwanted, tell em all lie down.
We got a shot. I don't want to tell him. I didn't even go to the audition.
First thing in the morning
cause we uses,
graduations you book all three jobs and you haven't got the third one I go through. I was like wait a second I was like.
when the destinies chow video tat his idea, be
can be added no beyond say was with the agency jews,
with wilhelmina beyond
it just happened to walk into the agent agency yesterday and she hand picked your card
as her love interests in the destinies child jump a job video you could check to how good about yourself. I bet you forget about dr thou anna, seventy four seventy five hours richer from having no money, plus a book to sketches campaign, five thousand dollars, plus a book to sketch
and the buckle campaign for
five hundred dollars so easily. In one day there
ten thousand dollars.
My mind was bologna and I just kept booking jobs when I realized it was,
about how I looked, but how people felt array
ah me how I was laughing and making people feel seen and heard, and it was easy to work with
And everybody else was like snobby behind the lag behind
the camera or when the camera was off word.
as is men. Guerin is so easy to work with you deaf end,
the world is so big witnessed, so small and industry and every
and in this industry you book,
jobs to wet three ways, three ways
you sleep with somebody or your like the necks god
Gift you look you're like the most unique person on the planet and, like the albino kid like completely
fr it than anyone is like your book every job or you have the best personality,
it wasn't the best. Looking guy wasn't sleeping
anybody and, but you could not out our person,
Her personality, we were just haven't thought of a like a party every every time we did a photo shoe. So that's
our modeling came about, and I just love
The lesson that I learned modeling was: I went through probably about fourteen or fifteen rejections.
But I was growing through those rejections, so I learned,
a growth through my nose to earn my powerful. Yes, I was Tokiwa nuts. It's it's funny, kiss
One thing we used always do when I run sales offices as we would have they since call to pushes were like
Put everything in we eat sleep embrace fourteen days in a row just go at, unlike the universe, is gonna test you at some point in time like
see if you actually want it like your cars,
break down, somebody's gonna die, you know,
gonna get sick, you're gonna get the flu
there's something, that's going to happen, and it's like the universe
always test you to see. If what you are actually going for is. Is some
that you're really passion about it. For you that supervision,
like you, had to go through a bunch of nose. Most people too
Up at number two, they wouldn't have kept going
so it's like, or they would have even shut up in the first place rain. So it's like you had to go through showing up
getting reject, get a rejection. All of your insecurities coming to the surface and then going to the very last one
and having that feeling of.
I should even do it and then the universe spoke inside of you and you like. I let me go in anyone in any way.
but it happened to be the last one to see universe testing you at all points in time. That's it's crazy! That's that story so is that is that before
The whole thing is happening in France than that
prison yeah.
So how do? How do you go from? You know, because everyone's gonna be that does make guys make it so much money? How does he go in and
get into a french prison years down the road. So here's here, here's the deal and it was during the process so
during the modeling. This was during the mod okay, while so here
megan, all this money, but justice
as it is coming in Ghana had on having
an annual adviser. I dont come from money, so you end up attracting
As far as income goes the level of
personal development and how you see yourself
I feel worthy of the money I was getting so as fast as man I was buying. I had a little bitty apartment, sleeping on a box spring with a bunch of blankets. By
five thousand dollar pair of belgium.
dodging abarnis bike issues right
had no
standing of how,
money breathes and how money is energy and how you
attracted according to
the value and which you foresee yourself, no idea in uk.
change which are not aware of so, while being the in the picture frame of my life, because you can't it it's like.
You can't see what's inside the frame while you're in the picture, and so
here I am doing all this modeling stuff and I met you can open
magazines, you see me in wilson's, leather,
can see me an express man. You can see me in and nature, but
in the same magazine it like men is dude is everywhere. You can walk in
the mall at one time and add seven different campaigns going gap old navy tie
he'll figure wilson's love, but it was all macy's. It was all
in the malls at the same time, so you every single store that you are the damn near everything, a one plus
add the destinies child video out.
plus, I had the old navy commercial out.
as I lorry our hair commercial out, they died my hair, like burgundy
So it was like. I was every where here's the deal, but the money
The way in which checks were coming in they weren't coming in every single day. There were common in, like six months later
didn't. I never knew what it was like to make instant money.
so here I am at the height of my career. You could go in you, you could go to times square,
and there was a massive there's whole caught, the movie, hokosa mina, incredible hulk, and then there's
my billboard, that's bigger than incredible hold billboard, and
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ass if, in all these different things
didn't know gazebo.
Or I did all this. I was reading a book called the power of positive thinking by doktor norman,
it's appeal, but I read that book over three hundred somethin ties between the paper back an audio book, because great things get happening.
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but I had a girlfriend and she was miss france, two thousand and one two thousand to two or something like that. I'm leavin, the high library, like I gotta, miss,
is like miss america, so I got a miss France girlfriend
oliver billboard rob all over india boards am I
I got celebrity friends living in l, a at the hottest parties
and I'm in new york cause. I have a place in l, a and new york.
in new york, and then I meet the sea. These guys and one of them in
the deuce me to the miss france at the time. I don't know she
like we hit it off quickly, she beat
My girlfriend, when like ran around chase that girl too, to France
to france. She went out of town and I saw some guys at a club, and I knew
can allay knew they were
to no good, however day live the kind of life I'll make it all this money, but
I don't know how to
I don't know anything about investment or anything like that, so maybe
all this money, but I'm making it look good. However, I don't have no money in my account because I keep spinning it on bush. See these.
Guys they got. The bends is the best
leave the rolls royce is they got the bottles, though I've never had a simple. Have a sip of alcohol in my life, always wonder like pot, even if
it was cranberry juice or pineapple juice or water bottles at the club and had the best table being sir,
what about all the girls, and I always wanted that kind of lifestyle that big quality of lifestyle. So I seen a guy and I'm like how can I get your life
He offered me a opportunities like he'd. Theirs
So much I could say you know where key offer be an opportunity.
to meet him somewhere in. We talk some stuff in
He sent me on a mission. I picked up a car, I drove a cow
our over the fairy. I was in the u k over a fairy to amsterdam. Don't ask
don't tell I didn't know what I was carrying. I didn't ask, but my cut
was I'm on a cover
I have this magazine so everytime I'll get to the border. I'd show them the cover of this magazine, and then I would just go through what I would make four thousand pounds every time
drove the cotton. All I had to do was drive the car to answer
I rotterdam and leave it and then pick it up the next day and an knows it
that was it in four thousand pounds at that time was two point: three? U s dollars to one. I mean to
pel, so four thousand pound and grin yeah, but
certainly in cash tax, free cement
I'm doing all this stuff, but I have a dark side.
So never learn. My mom always taught me shoes. I when I, whenever
You never bought me anything whenever you can make your money you can buy. Whatever you want side did what
I could
my own money or those mowing lawns, cutting
as well as a little kids, Sellen lemonade stance. I didn't know that that was like. Oh,
entrepreneurs. Always
that's what my hustle and drive came from well,
while I was making all the money I still one.
to make more money greed huh.
And all I put money over people, so I took their job
and then I took another one, and over two two month spend time I did a seven times
samson await nor my checks to come in for modeling on billboards, but I'm doing all this not thinking about their responsibility.
What would happen the ramifications of what would happen?
So here I am four thousand four thousand four thousand four thousand forth all care,
I see now times at times too
wait three years all yell
ro, I am I go. This is easy! Not
If the weight about weight with money have time something don't feel right, I got caught.
did not feel right even before you call it didn't feel right because before before them
He sent me to the last sunday semi to france, but before they
It'd there they wanted me to go to africa, unlike
I'm not going to africa will guess what the do who took my place. This was back in two thousand and two, the dude who took my place in taken me.
drugs which I later found. I was drugs, still imprisoned right now.
I was supposed to go and then I stopped.
The next time I mean a sultan something about this, don't feel right the alive. We want you to go into france. I go into france.
every sign in the world. Stop stop me and usually, when you don't listen to those signs, they get louder and louder and louder, stop stop and get to the.
try to use my
cover of modelling again next time. You say we need
your vehicle on like this is new. They ve never asked to check my vehicle open up the back. There's congo drums brow. I don't know what's in the congo drowned, but I feel like
yeah. They x ray the congo drums and you can see these little bricks inside they open up the congo drums and its hollow, so they had occurred,
open the inside me pull out these little yellow bricks, one by one s. Emma life is over I'm book and stuff with vh one I've got acting.
Gigs go and I got modeling gigs go and everything is happening and in an end I one and a half year old daughter at that time. In that moment,.
That's when it all caught up to me. Just might
I is so virtuous and my head prison is like prince
no. You see all rikers island like yama, go to prison for a long time, so they put me in a holding cell for five days and all they kept. They bear
even fed me some sleep on this hard concrete floor, it's freezing
all the near there give him
this little square of of food and a kitten.
My teeth and ages kept sad. Who, who is it? Who are you?
working for who and the the type of people I was working for. If I ever was a snitch I would I wouldn't live, and I have a daughter. So I took everything I said:
An idea, but a little sad or no salt, they showed me on surveillance cameras cause. They had been
monitoring these people for years.
They showed me a video of me on camera.
they showed me a video of me on camera in a guy. They said that you are there, s, no is not in the night. It
That's not me, and I don't know who that is so. You gonna go to prison for a long time.
I was in that prison for a whole year before I got my first phone call in america. You get your profile call right away. So imagine why here
most people thought I'd die to know where you are now well, but here's the deal because its
Receives you write a letter, they got. It
he code, every linear, writings it and to let two months for
better to get to my mom solves working through the consulate?
but it was so wild some in their now. Might. What did I do
Am I live like that? Movie, six cents we didn't know he was dead all time and then his whole life just last before his eyes.
Every single crime I ever committed every shady thing. Every time I cheated on the test hit me when I went to prison. My life is over everything. Everything is over I'll, never see,
daughter again. So after a year, I was just kind of just kind of coasting coasting coasting costing costing finally start picking up books and everything after year. They sentence me. This was in two thousand and three by the sends me to two thousand and fourteen and in europe. If you appeal
I see it as a sign of disrespect and I'll give you more time, but give be more time for appeals. If you appeal, while oh yeah it, they got a weird you, Jesus dude digital system out there, so I'm out there and I'm just like yo ma, I dunno what the fuck I'm gonna do like my life, is over.
here I am, then they played something on tv. They played shawshank redemption,
allowed to watch. You want once a month
watch a movie was a whimper. Isn't there showing a movie people reckon out of prison yet hospital.
Of all the movies they give. People break out risen so we're watching shawshank redemption, and at this time a life is over.
And TIM robin says: one phrase change the game for me. He says they can t
anything they want away from me, but they can't take away my mind. Oh
instantly. I was hit on my way.
Exactly why I'm in prison, because when I was
Out of prison free
to say every day I feel like I'm sorry.
oh far, away from where I'm supposed to be, I feel like I'm in jail inside of my own body. I feel like I'm in a prison bar.
From worms? I'm be and guess what I'm manifested your interpreters
Finally, in response to the present,
in europe. So I said if I can put myself in prison
Well then, in this moment I'm a free man
So when I said I am a free man, I then started to think.
What would I do in here that I will
normally do out there. I stop
my dominant hand
I use my non domini hand which
I didn't even realize, was operating a different part of my brain. I started creating
but reading book after book after book, I learn to speak fluent french, I joined the art class. I just started doing.
These things and an end. Everyone
am. I was doing the stuff that I used to love when I was a little kid, it brought me so much joy and
the inmates. Will I may every time you sing, it makes me feel free, so I just kept singing, but it it was like what brought me joy
I was getting out on other people and I would paint and draw a portrait of other people's families. They were crying and they're they're like man. Thank you. So much can I give you anything. I like nah managed.
she'd be happy, and so I became the kind of person. What
I now know was adding so my
val you then I started running
nobody was running all their were was like lifting weights in fighting
when drug deal stabbing shit like that, like I really saw what happens when
Humans are suppressed and then
he started running a little voices start running you love to run running used to make you feel free. When you were a kid thirty days, half the inmates running with me less fight less
deals less stabbings. The warden brought me inside me ever since you ve been running. This place has been peaceful, keep doing great work
remember what I told you what I didn't get when I was a little kid somebody acknowledging me for doing so. I just kept going
and I became this person that people came to for advice. I'm like yo. This is wild. Here's the deal when I felt free, I felt the difference between. Oh, I think I'm free, but when I embodied the characteristics of freedom which,
ultimately doing everything that your heart wants you to express specially when it's been something I've that may be happy when I was a kid when I felt free,
Out of nowhere mind you I'm sorry,
having a twelve year sentence.
out of nowhere when I felt free.
It is called me in the office and they said today,
You're, lucky day we reach
said the drugs which they had no reason to because they already tested on three times. It was six point
two kilos of heroin. They had no reason is right.
Has the drugs to
if years later, retested drugs.
Ninety percent was fake for the
now that was real. You ve already done the time you're free to go home.
So what you're telling me
Is when you are out of prison before you went into prison, you are in.
None of your own mind when you were in and in that created
You being in a prison eventually, even because I've been around
june you can tell like your energy yours, you manifest stuff like theirs,
Even people out there just like out immersed in the word manifesting itself like your constantly manifesting stuff, you may have
as you yourself in a prison far away from where you should be
Then, when you're in there you start saying I am a free man. I am a free man and we can dive into and I've. I've talked about a million times the power of just the phrase. I am
that I'm a free man, I'm a free man, he started doing things. You said, okay. If this got me into prison, let me do the exact opposite of everything that I've ever done and he started doing all of these things. You've lit up the little child. That's inside of you and because of the
that's. It created the freedom. There was no reason why somebody should ever retouched drugs two and a half years down the road and find out that it was ninety percent fat.
and then you automatically just get out like that. You were literally able to create yourself into prison than your little is able to create yourself out of prison in losing my freedom. I discovered my freedom, so maybe the universe needed too
move all of the things I gave power too so that
I can remember where the power belong inside of myself, but I was still unaware of all this stuff, though, so you can still get a results being unaware, but if you're unaware you cannot
stipulate what actually happened. So, where is the or use it? Oil is a no. This is happening is always like the other stuff. I'm reading books on being really kind of motivating people on drawing are doing
other stuff. But while I'm in there, I wrote all
is because when the mind is quiet.
who you really are shows up. Your higher self literally starts speaking well when you're in a prison and there's no women, distraction or traffic or anything like job or anything, and you just got a lot of time to yourself man I started. May I I read the bible
cover to cover three times, I read the koran, covered a cover three times I go. There said the same thing underneath my boy who really from this word read this
The way it was wild bro, I was, is feeding myself
the information when I got out everything because it was like a overflow view, if
poor, so much water inside it isn't. He reaches its tipping point to eventually going to spill over into the next container. But if you poor.
Watch insider yourself witches
container, eventually going to spill over into the next container. Call the physical equivalent of your life.
I unconsciously did that. So, if you look
prison as if it were a woman's womb will.
I have a my we have a my wife. Is twenty six weeks were twenty six weeks pregnant right now? So if you look at that prisoner as if it was up a wall, I first added value,
to myself by doing everything that I love now what everybody else wanted me to do, giving everybody
power over my life. I did everything that I loved. It was too big for the eye container minutes spilled over into the yawl container and spilled over,
into the people, and then they started doing stuff. That day, love which was too big for the container soda
level of value and overflowing overflow was too big for the will of prison of just like a baby. What what
grew on the inside gets too big for the wound, contractions and then its produced into the next room called birth. I feel that my speech,
body called the value and what I was adding too big for their space
but what once grew on the inside was produced on the outside the called the birth of freedom so
I can arctic because I apply it now. I could
apply. Now I don't, I was praying and I was lucky
This thing happen is crazy, but I also wrote a bunch of songs. While I was in there, I get out
go to los angeles. My brother, you know, he's a ease.
Not blood brother but that's. My brother's name is de re, Davis, comedian, actor.
he gave me a place to stay, and he goes
So what are you going to do while you're, here
Only a singer
he's a you'll, be a singer is a year.
is like I give you right
anyway, you go buy clothes, you get a free places day. The only thing is: don't come
Unless you have a song
Am I gotta know any producers use like.
You'll be a singer right then I get dont come here.
Unless you have a song that started my introduction to myspace, I knew nothing about myspace. Now, like talking to people on internet,
we're. So I put on my half naked body
like a singer with no music. Unlike look in a record songs, I message of causes,
before spam. My message: a thousand people looking for rigour,
recording and I'm just going on going I'm going on going on going because I'm trying to do asleep,
thirty days. I had twenty eight songs cos
I met one guy who got
the studio I recorded one song. I put that one song on there and then I just kept going and I'll just like
The song I got the song of china record thirty days,
a twenty eight songs
I didn't have a place asleep thirty days it
yea songs, here's the host
the improv inside of l, a typically he he puts
comedians onstage.
This time. Armies, like all my little brother, he's a singer online, ludicrous
was there like mad people was like they're, so mad celebrities, they come every monday. Put me off,
age. As saying ludicrous walks on me walks.
to me anyway,
You got a demo twenty eight songs. I got
two months later, out of five hundred thousand dollar record deal by d, be deaf jan see other works
the songs
I wrote
while I was in prison.
Were the songs that were on the demo,
songs. I guess sign with so
here I am like yeah. This is crazy.
Hmm, I got me a little sign and I didn't get all the money cause. I had to release the album, but I never released the album, but I released songs
ray. I wasn't studio right and with two chains and change e in an end,
lula and, although I'm like hell, this is why old, some
in the studio experiencing all this stuff we put out a song call celebrity chick, were I wasn't originally was. The average is right in this all for somebody else to sing it wasn't even my style of music, but
let us on t R, L and mtv viii and be easy and things like that, so we're perform in the song in Egypt
wasn't my style than I felt myself doing up
music, that wasn't my style and I gave
my power away to everyone else who wanted
it is show up how they thought I should show up.
No amount of money could keep me in
the environment. If I can't be authentically myself, so I ended up leaving the label and people call me bill. I yell what
people go crazy for an opportunity like this I said, but at the expense of me not being myself. I'm not put in
image, I'm not. I don't want to be on you know. Yes, I do
have a password role around with gang bankers in were rolled around with hard core of people, but I am thus nine
that's not me, my love people, our fun colors, I'm very expressive person, and things like that. Like me,
style of music, doesn't have no business being on stage with you
the style of music.
As I this makes. No sense is not even my core audience
I was losing myself, so I left got car crazy,
and when I left
also left forty thousand dollars.
the table was never put out the album. Well, I said
All the money that I had bought me a jeep, wrangler cash spent spent, makes us
I don't know anything about money like man is pen seems familiar ass. I was at least I got myself and then the hype died,
out in the underground buzz die,
it down and at that time
I was going by my middle name, Steph Jones.
The fine is my middle name, but that was my stage name and I was like man, I gotta do something different and I was about all I have is my car.
So I stated my car. No money was come in and even the songs that I wrote for other people, sometimes they don't get placed.
For five years later, I'm gettin checks right now at last
like twenty
three thousand dollars out of nowhere for a song that I wrote twelve years ago, unlike idea I could use is back then.
but when the no money was coming in my girlfriend had broken up with me,
I couldn't get my life together. The hype died down down,
a pretty much disown, because I couldn't give my life together ma
was dying in the hospital.
Family was overweight. I start
Indeed, I didnt pay taxes for ten years,
Would they can get you past seven saw out two hundred and fifty thousand dollars to the government.
Super negative, try to kill myself twice and it is kept going. So
just as fast. The velocity that level of energy that one that I had when I was a little kid just as fast as it went up, was just as fast as it went down with like three.
Vince chain to my soul, eight tonnes I mean rocket ship fast, so
the way, as our put in on this way, Sargon depressed,
Didn't have a place to stay to show,
Before to even go buy back home that told people if fire
Come back home and means
quit at life cycle.
Two shameful too
back home. My mom without money was still given me money
I something years old kid take care,
my daughter, take can't take care
I myself am I.
The point of living in
extremely talented, trying
Why all these people that are less talented are achieved?
giving this big quote?
We have life that I know I'm supposed to have. As I keep
Keep trying and and had don't have
as a stay, so I go for my car to sleep in
different girls houses, but it may at the adventure having sex is good like lemon,
there is a point. Where am I
only one has sex no more because
love myself, I hate myself and I want to die. It makes no sense to be alive to all
his talent and they have no life and then my friend put up
Will it into his head.
who had all the cars.
all the models, all the money- he had everything, so I thought but himself leg. So maybe my take on success should be refrain tune, because what I thought was success in the big pinnacle, my friends
but a bullet into his head and I've benatar, surrounded by successes,
massively successful peoples has ninety ninety nine. So I seen it I seen in many different industries what it's like when you,
get a lot of money
like when you lose a lot of money. What is like, when you get a lot of money, a grow, it was like when you get a lot of money and sustain it
and I had all these different characters in my past mad. I gotta do something different.
So going into this living
A car still go down. I don't know how to combat. Oh, no
so like right now I don't know how to go down there, because we its its wide open up and out bigger and better- and I didn't know how to come back to the world- was too heavy some living in my car one one
they turn into a week turn into three weeks turn into a month turned two and a half years close to two and a half years.
living in my car, two hundred thousand that tuna, fifty thousand thousand debt girl
and broke up only this is while I'm in my car final straw,.
In the studio would have a list artist
riding for his elbow, what name his name, I'm like this is my big brother
cause. I know this song is gonna. Go I come up with the melody I come up with lyrics.
And I'm calling the bare publishers like how many points do I get there like? Oh, they changed the song.
the song comes out and is the x
Same song,
There is nothing about the song and song that number one anna gotta grammy
while I'm living in my car in this person is still
bayless celebrity cause. I know who it is, and so it's not like someone, that's small but you're. Looking at every once again everybody else with less talent, succeeding and you're, not yeah. That was the final straw, and I say you know what music the industry, all those people
Myself, that's when it was. I went dark,
I was still living in my car, no by new kazakh a fake it. I could take it easy echo put on any face. You want me to put on come from,
acting and modeling industry in l a so. It came point where I couldn't fake it: no more and the nats what turned into the weight that would turn into the stress and depression,
and no relationships, my mom
they'll, sending me money through where
certain union and I know she don't have no money on my man
Thirty, two years old.
A man who can't take
care of himself fourteen traffic tickets. They
going to the court house to pay them off
somehow I guide semi assigned somebody send me a. Would you call it a.
Anonymous pay pal for, like fifteen hundred bucks.
I believe in you, keep going you
No idea who that assists day I mean the way,
I'm spear words, not nowhere. It cannot, however, I believe in you keep going fifteen endows paper. I took his money and I was going to the court house to pay off all these two.
It's one block away from the courthouse. A cop stops me. I got.
Bags the living out of my car gama bags of these white trash bags in the back of my car cops.
Me already know cause I
I didn't have any money for a child support. They need,
dismayed at my license? The
the more registration was past do so. There was.
a kind of stuff just, but I was going to go, pay it off at the courthouse and ass. I please don't take me.
Car I live out of my car. I got this
me right now. I'm one block away from the courthouse. If I could please don't take my car, he wrote me a ticket. They took my car and a cop, just
And I was in a dinghies parking lot that can do this anymore. I can. I can do no more.
So my mom once again sent me a western union and I said one day: I'm a parent. I want to ask a promise by said mom, I promise of payback, and I know she don't have it that night. I got my car back out of the impound,
these three forty three in the morning. The night before I mean the before that
so I got my cry to empower gotta back. I went to l a fitness
always head at that my member
membership of l, a fitness the
I would like shower and stuff like that parked it right at the front came out so my broken a monk
the day. I got my card, the impound, so by broken my car stole my computer, and I was
I cannot win for anything, and I just remember saying
can I get any worse in a net
the moment I was like, maybe I should stop saying: can he get any worse so that night I put the scotch tape and a t
sure, too, on the right side of my car and I used to sleep in my car in
on the corner of la brea and hollywood at the mail and more in the mail and more parking in the parking lot in our face, because it was like a I felt more safe in that place.
Three forty three in the morning august two thousand and eleven- that's when I had that was the moment. That's what set up all of this.
Ok, I'm tired
fighting ottawa
Finally, the war.
I wanna to be healthy. I want to be happy. I want be surrounded by nothing but positive people, just one.
Inspire people, and I want to make a bunch of money, but I want the money to represent something that I passionately believe in that I would do for free. Just show me aside: shall we assign one we
later, I'm at a gas station and a homeless guy comes up to me asking me for money, and I say you have more money than me and the homeless guy said change. Your mindset change your life and, in that moment right there. The sixth sense moments where your whole life flash behind him before your eyes at a conscious interrupt, and I thought about everything- the prison, the modeling, the acting the life growing up change myself. My mind is set on something then that's why the result is what it is
so if I do different but the same circumstance, my life will change change. My said change your life when I just kept on you know, if you play a song long enough, you'll be singing the song your subconscious mind will have you sing a song for the home on my new song was changer miser, changer life changer miser change, your life changes to myself. I will walk up to some as a set of escalators chow
am I change your I'll. Take the stairs. I normally use gel soap. Change of mindset, change alike- I use bar. So normally
wake up late change, a miser change your life. I would in practice waking up early hour com
From a family, there doesn't know anything about held the active lifestyle.
Our livy living eating? Nutritious change, a miser change your life. They may go find
and people who are doing it. Let me surround myself, for I held the active lifestyle community. Let me go,
chasing women at a club. Let me go chase a bit.
Version of myself. Every thing
on the other side of something I would never do in areas of my life. Where was a happy, and I kept going
going. What at one of these leadership seminars a guy.
On stage: did we find a good book keep reading it?
as we stop reading it,
from your past. Our group, like.
That's what happened.
the rise and fall from the
acting the highs
the modeling, the music and, unlike the ego.
the ego creep, then I allowed the ego to creep in because I didn't choose to keep learning choose to keep growing
choose to surround myself around
does it have people who are up to something in its I made it
All about me,
At that moment I became less me more. We, but
to get to where you gotta help me.
We kind of person, so I picked up the book power of positive thinking again in a cab reading
cap reading kept reading, and then I was around a healthy, active lifestyle community. While they were talking about goals in dreams and
retiring their parents and in all these
where things and as button by nature, I just started doing everything they were doing
I dropped thirty five pounds put on nineteen pounds of muscle, took my body back from sixteen point, four percent,
down a six percent I, but at age. Thirty two. I do you think that you could do that. So just because my energy, I thought it was gone,
but I was around and in
apple community of pure speaking, a new language. What you are doing, I was learning a new learning, a new language, europe, you weren't from
Spain and you decide to go to germany and now you're learning german, just by being around to learn french to speak fluently, not rosetta, stone and starbucks. Once a week, one hour a week, I was actually in france amongst the
rich, the only american there.
I'm rusty now you don't speak it every day, but
the acknowledged in everything. So by be it by by way of proximate
being around the people
nor round the fire. I got warm and I still have that same
Energy, I finally knew where, to put it, I said before energy cannot be created nor destroyed. It can only be transferred, so I transferred into reading books are transferred into leadership I trance.
read into building people up, I transferred into learning and understanding about money. I'm like! Oh, that's why I kept losing.
In the same reason why ninety nine percent of the people who win the lottery lose it because they're not operating on the same frequency as the level of money that they got so the money is coming back to meet them at their level of self development and the value in which they see themselves. So
So I was aware of all these things. I then went back to all these bit benchmarks in my life has started connecting the dots in
being what were the commonalities and seeing
by this happen, and that's what I decide
even put into my book, which was the journey. The lesson
it's what I extracted, how you can place it in your life
I didn't know was that by pope
thing this on line, my very first
message was gonna come from somebody says by you, sharing your real sir, but your authentic testimony. I put the gun down.
five messages later after you,
because I shared my testimony about me living in my car and I just completely opened it up.
By you sharing your testimony, I didn't drive my car off a bridge. I knew what my mission was and I knew what my purpose was. It was to be an example of what true freedom looks like thank you uncle duane for expressing what free looks like as smuggled way taught me. I just didn't know that that expression was going to be something that could
an example for the voiceless, because I was the voiceless until I spoke to a shared, my vulnerability, ted
shared my story and their peoples,
man, I want to pay you to come to the school
come to the prison you want to come to this jail. You wanna come speak too
His teens you wanna come like european.
This panel. You want to go and do this, unlike like yo and unlike
I had no manager, I know pr, but
I am able to pay the rent and I'll make
These thousands of dollars.
And I'm not even looking for the money like money is great. However, it seems that the more
people that I am impacting.
The dollar amount is matching, cite the bigger the message, the bigger the platform bigger the outcome so start
Paying attention patterns book
as I have these significant things
that occurred in my life. I cannot
always pull them to the forefront when I started noticing sir,
things happen in my life, I'm like.
and I can easily go like back as a thing about it- is weeds Donny
anything to grow, but time. So, no matter how well you keep up your garden, you leave it for their long enough in know time
You can brush your teeth for sixty years every day, stop brushing your teeth for five days.
Infections will go. Take a shower everyday. Sixty years. Don't take a shower
you don't can keep renewing your mind. Stop for five days, sting
mine, stinky life's think, yoko
when I started learning about business, possessed transferring
but still the same power same velocity. Whenever I get into something
I don't know how to kind of do it had it not
a kind of criminal I don't know how to kinder break into those cause. When I was a little kid
When I go into something go hard. I go all the way in
I went all the way and with marvelous
my wife, like that,
Tom all the way, in kind of guy dialogue,
Anything from this
all the way in will always produce.
vastness of results, regardless negative or positive, and it just keeps growing.
can I moved to austin being surrounded by guys
Like you and other business men that are due
things that I'm not, but I am also doing things that they're not we're all iron sharp,
his iron building people up- and this is the next cut. This is the
cut in investments in an in built.
this in every thing, however, my sweet spot is sharing, must
Are we being vulnerable and telling everybody that you can create a different outcome for your life and
Depending on how many people you impact, there will always be a blessing on the other side pressure,
yeah you that you did the perfect example of your message. Your message, yeah, you just shares in people. Go me too and that's what you were put here
do us and eu in so many people take the phrase.
Carry says you need to fit
in this world and make you invisible. You know somebody
we want to fit in just one if it in kind of like yours,
and when you into the modeling you wanted to fit in
but they were looking for somebody. Many fitting saturday had that role played in you got the modeling
thing that I e that we and in its there's two things actually number one,
perfect example of a mean tony,
and says you underestimate what you can do in a year, but people under us over
smear that you doing a year but underestimated they can earn a decade. If you think about about a decade
the girl, yours even inside, of a jeep rang again and taken away, and
I have a multi million dollar, how situ levin it's a decade, and so people don't don't think about putting
the time in putting in the times, knowing that, if it's in the right direction, eventually
get wherever they want to go just the direction, you do of course correct. That's all you did right
That's the first and second thing is
being around you and that's the thing that I found that's the most
This is more than most people that I've ever been around you're, so
but a bringing in your inner child
in no sort of way being ashamed of it? Rather,
what people are ashamed of, like that things that we love about being a kid in, and you talk about even being imprisoned. You you discovered
Is it juice, eleven you're, a kid in that got you out of prison and also
continuing to get you paychecks from the
Did you wrote when you were imprisoned rights as a
discover this little dinner. Kid talk to me about like how thou
Was for you that discovery and then also to just step into it and not be afraid of other people's judgment and just go? This is me
This is my soldiers who are truly em and I'm just gonna put out there for everybody to see so
because you are a forty one about to be forty. Two year old little kid you are saying: yeah hundred percent people see all this stuff that I've been able to create and they're just like man. How do you just like? Do it and you always have
italy's amount of energy as well
you see is this forty one euro, but what's happening when I was a little kid I said I want to be a superhero. I won't have adds like an action figure will be stronger than the average man on a say people's lives. I'm doing what I wanted to do when I was five. The modality doesn't matter relieve me any platform if it has to do with what I always wanted to hear a notice, a kid at all run out of energy. So when you're operating from the s sense of your heart theirs,
his secret jewels there, so how I discovered this is very interesting. Actually, I'm gonna just take everybody through this, like I'm gonna get you to answer your own question.
Imagine a little kid: your parents, a little kid, is coming up to you. Going mom mom mom dead, dead, dead, mom, dead, dead that and you ignore that kid for twenty years. What do you think the relationship is going to be landing and begun because there's no emotional closure, if the water, if the flower does
get proper water sunlight, that's the nutrients, it needs for growth. So when the child is not acknowledged, it starts to it starts to it turns to quiet.
then mean then anger than rage. Then various it's like invisible. You understand that
Imagine any time you get ahead for an idea. Somebody should create that
or a man. I want to do
this thing right here in or something
to bring you so much joy when you were little kid like playing in the rain swimming drumming, dancing, dont, think about business and in this sense right here, but something that you just absolutely loved.
Kay, when was the last time you did it,
someone, a lady that I spoke to shoes. I haven't danced and dancing. I just feel like
something is missing. I have the job. I have the money with sir
thing is missing out like what would you do?
of when you are like around five or six years old,
and her whole body. Susan. I used to love to dance
And I don't know- and it just brought me so much joy and I was like when was the last time you danced she is like about twenty years ago I said so imagine dance was a spiritual child.
like it was it's an expression of you and connected to your inner child.
Every day that goes by his going mom mom mom mom dad dad dad.
imagine if you ignore their child for twenty years, and who do you think the relationship will be lightened? I feel like something is missing. As she goes, I said: ding ding, ding, ding ding. You just found yourself
because we're not just this physical body in this meat suit skin. There is actually a spirit. I feel there. The sole inside of here there's gotta, be summaries.
I'm go like this and we
conjure up our stories in thing, that's coming from somewhere well when it fills dead when it feels lost, and I've been there before. So I can speak on a personal experience because dead is lost. What's missing. Issue is the connection to your speech.
So when you actually honour those things.
The little kid is like, let me show you more.
You tell little johnny johnny yourself. So then he starts running faster.
Get people to understand that what there
looking for they already have the ideas, the creativity coms from the kids.
That's why they're so creative from ages won through seven then gets diminish
as they get older, but if you tap into it, I feel like it's connected to your spiritual, umbilical cord, that's a straight route from Heaven, so that in itself right there people got that.
Right there. They would experience a drastic shift in any relationship in relationship to money in relationship to creativity, their javanese anything.
No, you got a lot of people that are successful, but there
loud people were success, one not happy.
Those were compensate too sure to destroy
from an area that they ignored, since they are little kid. So what did I do and I was in prison, started running my mom.
Says I started walking when I was eleven and a half months and it takes it, takes almost seven and a half months and it takes babies like eleven something to to do something. She was like your shoes like you're, a full blown running before most babies are walking so runnings always been inside of me always so. When I started running in prison.
I was increasing my joy so funny joy to the world. The law says I got bring joy to
World- and it seems like my world- is an expression of the joy to teaching people how to honor their inner child only gets them to remember themselves, and when you remember yourself to the core, you don't have to try to be happy. You have to look for happiness. You don't have to look for love could because it's a it's an expression of who you are and then you'll
tracks people to the way that you see yourself through what you're saying is what everyone searching for the money, the key.
As the happiness. The acceptance is what they think they want, but they truly want just to find themselves in a sense of fulfilment which they are the captain of stuff on the top
well, look look at me. Look underneath brazile the same shit. It's all the same. She I just really need a man to make me happy. I really need this job to make me happy. I really need this money to make me
We, then you get the shit. You realize that
what you wanted happens over and over and over and over and over. So that's why I had to redefine what I felt like wealth and success was my version of wealth and success is to live of law, a life of grace, joy and ease, and when I go to sleep at night, no voices, it's peaceful and it's calm. When I look in the mirror and the truth shows up- and nobody else is around- I love what I see.
That my version of success, I'm sticking to that one, but that one won't put a bullet into his brain. I don't know if there's a better way to end up certain that yeah, so everybody just say no game. We're talking about this beautiful book that he has called change your mind.
The change your life and also has a new pod test
So tells you helped me what's wrong with it says my pie cast is called welcome home with you
And Jones, in its everywhere, where pike s are- and we have a few episodes up right now by the time you hear this could be a lot more, but basically just talking about.
Insights and awareness is that
be the learned, applied experience just for people to have
you know things that are real from real people and dumb
welcome home cause like when you really find yourself
You realize that home is not the home until you find a home in yourself. So
reminding people of who they are by giving them tools and ways to have these insights to discover their own version of freedom in love incited themselves. These are things that I talk about and my book as in english and spanish and paper back and we are currently working on the audio book now come on.
amazon and dumb. You know I didn't write this huge esoteric book is my personal experience. Talk about god, Tugela spirit, talk about. You know she get in trouble for there
is the? I extract a lotta lessons and I didn't write it
to the level of my knowledge, I wrote for people who typically don't read books at all is very simple
read very simple: you can finish in a day. Very soon
over. There is some pictures in their big words, and I made the chapters short. However, the spirit in which it was written was designed specifically for you to remember yourself, loved, double more question for
I ask. So, have you ever the phrase they say you die twice. The first one is the first time the first
This only stop breathing a second time is the last time someone says your name in between those two deaths. What are you hope people say about you after you're gone before the last time? You speak about again say that one more time you say that more time in a different way, so they say you
I twice first time was when he stopped breathing. Second time is the last time someone says your name. What do you hope people say about you in between that last time they speak your name and the time that you die. The thing about it is people aren't going. I live my life in such a way that people will never stop saying my name. People still talk about benjamin franklin. He bengal my dad died when I was twelve, but he's still alive, because I carry on his message of being able to love no matter what and that's something he gave to me when I was five, so my dad's still alive because soul, a soul lives inside of messages like our ancestors are still alive, just like those trees, if one of those trees fall the roots and somehow they'd be an integration.
And some how so I there is like the physical death, but I don't believe in the kind of death where they're going to say that be the last time they say my name, so I'm living my life and making and working towards making the kind of impact.
They'll mention my name with the great because of the impact that I chose to leave. While I was physically on this earth, but my soul will forever live daring
hans presbyterian, yes, good stuff now belong is ever had
it's good for everyone. Who's listening to the podcast has no clue the cars going on right now, yeah. So basically he has these microphones that stretch out. They look like alien arms. One of them's in my face, one of his face were sitting three feet apart and I reached out
with my right hand, is raised over with his right hand, are acting like this was a year visual learners, you're just going to have to visit you gonna, let you go to youtube and look it up years. You have to do their predicament precisely to thank you so much for the work that you are doing in the world. In giving stories in
stories like mine wings, to fly the procedure. Yes, sir,
hey thanks so much for watch this video. If you want to learn even more about mastering your mind, click re here and watch this video is what
that was the experience changed the trajectory of my life forever. I stayed up all night writing and just kind of re evaluating everything that I thought about the world.
Trying to grab the gross reason. One trip, not are you,
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